[Verse 1]
Lately I feel so alone
I don’t even know why I have a phone
Nobody hits me up and I’m stuck
Never had someone that I could call my, own
It’s lonely walking down this, road
Fake friends that I didn’t have to, know
The same ones that f**ed me over and whenever I need them, and I turn around they just turn ghost
I feel I’m at a all-time low
I am depressed and it hurts me to know
My ex is happy and I can’t seem to cope
She’s ignoring every text message I wrote
My anxiety is high, my medication is low
I am so stressed and I hate being home
I sit it over, think everything alone
I wish I had somebody to hold, damn
I’m sick and tired of putting up a front
Like I’m happy but really I’m in a slump
I try to stay strong, screaming “I don’t give a f**!”
But if anybody will give it then I’m, the one
I wanna’ put down my walls and open up
I hide behind this rapper I’ve become
Addicted to being accepted like a drug
No ones here I feel like I’m ready to plunge
I remember you said my music was wack
Teachers persuading me to try to give up my act
They said, the image and the drive is what I lack
Made me think maybe I could never be a part of rap
Well I ignored that, I said f** it and snapped
Over 20 Million plays where are my haters at
I didn’t need a label to give me a chance
The day I sell out an arena, I feel like I’m the man
Buzzin’ hard, but define nothing
Never found someone who really loves me
People coming around now cause I’m getting money
A few plays later now they all see something
The same guy that is from the start
The same guy my ex left with a broken heart
The same guy who turned music into his art
The same 7 year old who jumped to being a star
I’m 22, and I won’t let myself down
I stood up right after I fell down
It’s hard to see heaven when you know your hell bound
I never really opened up and that’s until now
I hope that I never lose you
If I could choose one person I would choose you
I hope you understand my pain
Cause that’s somethang that we all got to go through
[Outro]
I hate being down this road
Been down before
I feel like I need you more
I’m so alone
Since I was 7 Years Old
My futures all I’d imagine
And now I’m here and I look back and I’m screaming dammit
This a life I never planned it, no I never planned it